Alright, so every weekdays, I watch this show called Emergency something. It is a a TV show that shows how nurses and doctors deal with their patients everyday especially in the emergency department. Well, earlier this afternoon, they were showing this guy lying in bed, unconscious and well, had his chest opened. of course it was since he was having his heart transplant. *sigh* And now, that makes me think of err.... what if I donate some organs of mine. Yes, yes, I know that'll happen when I meet my death..well not really but in my case, only death will allow me to do that since umm... my kidney is not that healthy..okay, thats a different story, but think about it, if I do it, then I can help other people out there. I mean, this guy would have been dead by now if not for the person that donated his heart to him. Hope you get what I mean. Ah well... I might though. Okay, don't freak out in case you are.... ;) It's just a thought but still... *ponders*

That;s awesome GG... and usually, people do think of that when they are sick.. :/
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Well... *ponders quietly* when I was smaller, I used to lay down on our driveway at night and try to count the stars.. Then it kinda leaked into what they were... I used to spend hours at a time sitting there. I used to think they were these eyes that only I could see. *smiles quietly* I used to imagine that one day I would be able to sit on one. I stopped laying there after my mum nearly ran over me...... *disturbed* ^_^

Mmm...

This is going to be a while...

The whole religion stuff (more recent).

The universe/Stars (since I was 7).

How stuff is made (since I was 8 ).

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Basically, stuff like that... Stuff doing with meaning of life and all that I ponder a lot.

What is life? (long, long time).

GG if my opinion matters on the first one. I think that people donating organs is a good idea especially if you say that they can have them when you are dead.

Well lets start at how to take apart things and put them back together since i was little.

the stars since i was even smaller yet.

Well, I've been thinking this for days now and i'm not sure how I could this up. *sighs*
this is not easy. Gah, this thing make me understand myself more which I don't know if it's for the better.








p.s. Apologies, I can't explain. I prefer to keep t myself in case you're wondering...

The future is really on my mind recently...like 24/7.

I am always thinking about the future and how I want to live my life.I also think about my family a lot.I miss them a lot.I have not seen them for 3 years now.I always wonder if when I become an adult I will have time for the ones I love.Finally,I am always wondering about what life will be like once I meet a true friend(if I do).You guys are good friends,but I mean a friend in the real world where I can visit and chill with them everyday and talk to them when I need them.

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I just can't get him out of my head. It's always him, him, him.... :/ and not talking to him for days... I mean,.... :[ In all honesty, I feel unsettled...

P.S DONT PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT I JUST SAiD.. I just had to... Let it out..like right now.. :/

Dying and living in Heaven / hell for eternity.